or are we?

been thinking if we did it right?

i can see how we were raised and morally and spiritually formed well inside the antioch community. and i always wanted every new members of the community to be formed not in the same way, but with the same morals and commitment like we have until today.

are we doing it right? 

i don’t know if we are doing the right thing but i think  we are still focusing on our main objective as a community of God.

or are we?

to be honest, i no longer know the answers of this question. i no longer have a clear eye to see if what we are doing is still Godly or if they compliment His sacrifices.

i need answers. answers that will provide what my inner soul has been asking for years back.

are we still moving as a community that lives in His image or are we dictating the things and decision that will satisfy our hidden self-seeking power?

this. this is confusing. i no longer know the way, i no longer know where i am. how can this be so complicated, when in the eyes of other people, it seems to be an easy as pie.

anonymous

hey.

life has been complicated and confusing. it’s kinda hard to portray a golly side of you, during your downs-and-downs-and-downs. nor. show your strength while battling a ten foot giant, alone.

but after battles after battles self is still empty. the glory of winning or the glory of my short wins doesn’t last that long. it’s still a win though, not just a happy win ending.

it may seem sad, but it’s not. being sad is too different from being empty. sad is the absence of happiness. but empty, happiness is present but you just can’t feel it. i personally question myself about this emptiness thing. do i really can’t feel mr. happiness or i just won’t let myself feel it. and i’m talking about real happiness here.

will life get better? will it stay the same? or will it worsen?

i don’t know.

but.

i am down. and that’s why i choose to stay up.

i am weak. and that’s why i choose to strengthen up.

i am dead. and that’s why i choose to live.

Final Term

It’s that time again for Finals, but this time…it is really Final. 

I’was truly a stressful month for us graduating students. We tried to managed our time to finish homework, study for exams and quizzes, do reports and especially, meet the deadlines for our major projects.

Sobrang nakakastress kumilos ng kumilos para sa mga projects, kaya ang laki ng pasasalamat ko sa mga tumulong at kumilos para sa mga final projects namin. Diba? Ang galing nila? 

Disclaimer: My friends and I didn’t involve too much on our project works mainly because, we are handling the League of United Psychology Students (Psychology Organization), and we don’t want to put an additional work and stress for us. Hehe!

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This was our project from Training and Development. We had an actual simulation of what is happening during the training of HR Practitioners.

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There were two groups for our Nihongo class, one group will wear the Yokata (as seen above) and the other group will wear a cosplay costume, which I don’t have any pictures. Sorry!

We had a magazine project from one of our major subject (Current Issues and Trends for Psychology). We were assigned to do a personality magazine. Sorry, I do not have a picture of our actual magazine.

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We also did an HIV and AIDS Awareness seminar on our Physiological Psychology. This seminar was open to all students since we want everyone to be aware with HIV and AIDS.

Handling this kind of event was so stressing and frustrating, especially the paper works. Haha! But overall, we had so much fun doing this kind of activities. Thank you to all the people who organized these events.

Emmanuel

Best Thesis Colloquium

“Do not settle for less, always aim for the best”

This is the quotation I never forget to remind to myself when it comes school works or finishing something. I never and will never settle for less or to what other people say “okay na yan”. I am never contented to that and never will be.

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Today, we celebrated Valentines in front of a large crowd presenting our thesis. It was a new experience since we have never done that such thing, and to be honest nakakakaba siya at nakakapressure because there were third year Psychology students watching us, at kami ang pagbabasihan nila sa darating na title defense nila. 

Our group is known to be the most-chilled group mainly because we relax a lot and practice on the very morning of the defense. We always worry about the things we are going to say, pero we pull it off naman in front. Nakakaramdam kami ng kaba but we comfort ourselves with jokes, which we heavily laughed. In fact, 90% of our practice time is laughing and making fun of ourselves. #notbraggingjustsaying

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(c) Rovie Manansala

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“Team X-men: Transhuman did it! 💕🎉 So proud of you guys!”Divine, Leader

“※ Best thesis or not, im still proud of these weirdos. We may have fought/argue a lot (divine & jjang mostly), procrastinate, always do our tasks last minute, always asleep in the classroom instead of doing some research in the library (like our classmates), but look where we are now, who would’ve thought that we will make it this far? That the “Team Chill” will make it to the colloquium?? We may not bag the best thesis title, but the experience i have shared with you weirdos will be the “best” of all the best. Afterall it’s the experience that really matter. Thank you for almost 1 year of being groupmates, for all the ice creams & coffees & pizzas, until next time Team X-Men Trans-human.” – Love, AL (aka Dr. Grey)

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“Congratulations guys!” “Lagi akong binubully ng mga yan” – Ma’am Bubbles

The person who inspired and motivated us through-out the journey.

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“Criticism is good, how will you learn? Paano kayo matututo kung hindi walang criticism or feedback?”  -Ms. Malou, one of the panelist

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“Don’t settle for less. Always expect for the worst. I was challenging you dati kaya ko binigay yon and nakikita ko naman yung effort niyo, nakikitaan ko kayo ng potential” – Sir Carlo, Adviser

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Also, we didn’t won the best thesis (bummer) but we received a special thesis award, which we are also proud of. Haha.

This is colloquium for thesis was a great experience for us. We enjoyed every bit of it kahit na may part na kinabahan kami at hindi namin alam ang isasagot sa mga questions ng panelist namin. Our group is glad to see each other again and share the same platform. Until next time guys! Loves a lot ❤

-Emmanuel

2017.

Hi 2017!

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I have no plans on doing the 2016 review since nothing good happened to me last or sadyang mas nangingibabaw lang ang hindi maganda.. but I have to say na madami naman din nangyaring maganda sa buhay ko last year…pero going back what I mentioned, I have no plans on writing them, pero I’ll be sharing few of my emotions and reactions towards those things.

2016 came so fast, and now we are in 2017.

I am definitely ready for 2017. I received a planner from a review center we invited last month and bought one that I have been planning to buy since last November.

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Planning wasn’t really part of my personality. I just want to do things ng biglaan, pero I realized how this world works – how the corporate and professional world does not do o umaasa sa mga biglaang events, everything should be planned,  everything should be scheduled (2-3 months  before the activity-project-event).

 

So as a student, or should I say..soon to be an employee, I should start the art of planning since not all preparations can be done overnight, or a day or two, ‘di ba? Haha!

I listed 3 goals for 2017. Yes 3 goals. Last year, I listed 20+ goals, unfortunately, I only completed half of them because of the tragedy that happened (I have no intention on blaming the situation, sorry). So this year, I am planning to focus on my main 3 goals and walk towards the right path at hindi yung paiba-iba.

I also listed 5 resolutions that I wanted to change for the better of myself. Along with my goals I won’t be saying nor sharing them to other people because I watched talks that says “show it not say it”. So for this year, my  goal would be to let my goals speak for itself not my blabby mouth.

I hope that everyone would have a fruitful and healthy 2017.
Focus on doing, not planning and saying.
Stick to your plans, and always choose your priorities. 

Emmanuel